An Answer.

What can I do to make it up to you?

His plead

Just be friends with me

My plead

I thought I wouldn't see you again. Your lovely writings. Your unbelievable courage to bring me back again. Your tempting pleads. Your enchanting lies. I missed every little thing about you that once made me feel alive. It was definitely heaven. I was in cloud 9. I was ecstatic. I was in every place that make me happy. I was with you.

But..I had to refute it all. I had to reject the blossoming love. Because nothing will happen if I accept your apologies again. Nothing will ever be the same if I rejoice with your pleads. You will just banish me again. Punish me for loving you. You will just bring the wrath that makes my being shake from terrible pain. The shooting shards of glasses that pierce through my bone. Your infidelity. You, alone, can make me feel horrible. Your doings. Everything. I can't take your own torture. If i will, I will be in your personal hell. I can't but I want to. I won't but I want to.

What could be the chances of you hurting me again? It's like running across a speeding train. It's suicide. It's torture. It's hell. It's everything i don't want to feel. Yet, it's everything i want to do. If believing you will give me a short sudden shot of bliss then, I will. Even if i have to suffer at the end. I will.

**NOTE: I made this in gaiaonline to be my answer to his question. Isn't that CHEESY. :l haha! ;) See the irony at the end? :)) I LOVEEEEE GRAMMAR! (even if I suck at it :P)